a new perspective

nothing like finding out that your un-born baby is going to be born over a month early with possibly under-developed lungs, that she now has a blockage between her stomach and intestines, that she will be taken immediately from you after birth to a childrens hospital to be operated on to make you check what you hold dear and believe. Yes, i did have some anger in my at first. But, somehow it has passed. Just kind of numb now. It kills me walking into the lobby of the hospital for a glimpse of the outside world and seeing a tour group of newly pregnant couples waiting to see the birthing rooms. I remember the excitement i had after 3 years of trying to have another baby and standing in that lobby. I remember them showing us where the NIC unit was and feeling sorry for all the people there. Now...the excitement is gone...and fear has set in. Trying to keep the right attitude...